#sorry i'm a super sensitive baby who can't handle feelings

[writella]

I LOVE YOUUUU!

I really am a lover girl fr fr. And girl I always get scared telling someone I like someone new cause in this day and age, people Are all like, "Oh she's a bop cause she has a new guy crush every week." and I'm standing there like 🧍🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️ I'm not a bop.

I just love love love telling you about these things. I am also really glad I got my closure with her, were still friends and her girlfriend is surprisingly chill asf lol.

I do really like him and he's such a mommas boy omg, I saw him with his parents and he was so cute with his mom and I'm just like omg.

He also like, really loves anime, like I never finished watching demon slayer and we had like a whole conversation on it.

ALSO! When we were doing this little quiz in class, he was watching me and was like your gonna do great. I ended up guessing on like half the questions and he was like "You just guessing? oh your so gonna fail" and started laughing and then I ended up getting a higher score than he did and we both just started laughing about it.

I love being in love but people always look at me like I'm crazy when I say I've only been in one serious relationship.

And I think it's mainly cause I turn 20 in like 23 days, but idk, I just hate being someone who has that like disorder where I get attached to people to easily and then I just become possessive (in a good way) and like very obsessed, and I think it scares some people because they don't know what to do.

I'm really just a sensitive baby lol. I cry when I lose friends, I have no clue how people have that nonchalant act when they lose a friend. I just can't.

But sorry to get so sad and so deep, I just hate the way I am sometimes. I really love you for your support though, you make me so happy. I love you isa, much love...

MWAH💋👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

Girl, I had to look up what a bop is… omg why would they say that?? That’s super strange and insensitive of them. As long as you’re kind and you’re respectful of yourself and others- which I know you are- it’s totally okay to have crushes! You’re just someone with a big heart.

It’s so cute you two got to talk about shows he likes and that he’s supportive of you in class, aw :’) you guys seem to have a nice banter!

Also, you’re only 19 so having only one serious relationship or even if you hadn’t even had any is very normal- everyone’s different. Some of us may have had our first kiss at 14 and some of us might get it in our mid-20s or later, who knows!

I get feeling sad or embarrassed about how much you care for others. I can’t say I’m exactly the same as you, but there has been many moments where I’ve had friends and I always wondered if maybe I liked them or catered to them more than they like me and I know that can make a person feel very vulnerable or lonely, but I think the most important thing is that you’ve recognized this about yourself and now maybe you can think of some steps about how to handle your relationships and friendships differently than you have before. Like pouring yourself into people who give you the same energy back, and in turn, not giving so much of yourself to others who don’t seem to have the same time for you. Maybe you can be a bit more selective now in that way. And also make sure there are certain activities you save for yourself, then some you save for your friends, and in the future save for you and your person. I don’t know really! I’m just talking haha!

Ily2 💖

[explxsiveoutcxst]

((hey so? um?? uhhhhh how do i say this without sounding like an asshole. but,,,uhhmmm,,,yknow i love angsty shit as much as the next person and usually i’d be all for it, down for p much whatever as long as it lets me get emotions out. but?? with,,,personal shit going on recently my emotions have been kinda wack and the latest m!as have so much going on at once and i’m ending up thinking abt kin things i don’t wanna think abt because it freaks me out and makes me feel super awful and like i wanna curl up in a ball and hide away from the world and maybe also throw up and cry and i just don’t appreciate that feeling and i’m starting to get uncomfy so,,,man i hate to say this? i don’t wanna disappoint anyone?? but,,,i’m a little too uncomfy for the current m!as to continue anymore so i’m cancelling them. and uh,,,can we pls just say whitty’s back to a functioning, fixed state everything is fine he isn’t physically hurt anymore he isnt being attacked yet again i’m not being fucking mauled yet again i’m not feeling powerless and worthless again i can have a tiny moment to relax for like 5 minutes is all i ask of you pls. ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,sorry,,,but uhhhh,,,,,,yeah. sorry to disappoint :-( but we can get back to angst eventually rn i just,,,god i need some more positive content pls i cannot handle the angst anymore for now pls i need a break from it i can only do too much before gettin overwhelmed pls understand pls am sorry))

[killhimjustkillhim]

AITA for getting upset with my husband after he told me nothing will change while I am pregnant?

Throwaway account. So me (26f) and my husband (28m), who I'll call "Jake" for this story, have been together for 5 years and married for 3. We have recently started trying for a baby as we both felt like that was the next step in our life together, and 3 weeks ago I got a positive test back. We were really really happy and told our families, and now my mom and MIL want to throw a big baby shower for us, it was just super good news all around.

Well 2 nights ago me and Jake were getting ready for bed when he reminds me to go through the house and make sure all the lights are off. Now he can be a little lazy at times, and it has become a nightly routine for me to make sure all the lights are off that he leaves on before we go to bed. I wasn't feeling very well and asked if he could just do it since he wasn't doing anything and was literally standing by the door. He then tells me "No, this is what is expected of you every night." I was a little hurt but I didn't want to fight with him so I just did it. When I came back Jake goes on this very long and unprovoked rant saying things like "Just because you are pregnant does not mean anything will change" and "You are still expected to cook, clean, and do all the chores every day because how can you be expected to be a mother if you can't handle a little work." He wasn't yelling or anything, he was talking to me quietly like a was 2 inches tall.

I was shocked because I had never heard him say anything like this. The rant went on for about 30 minutes before I interjected and asked "Well what do you plan on doing to help me with all of this." He then got extremely defensive saying he works his ass of at his job to provide for me and what is going to be our future children. (For context I don't work atm, my job was not paying enough to justify me going so I am a full time college student) He ended by saying that it doesn't matter how I feel physically or mentally, it is a mothers job to push through, and if he helped and babied me I wouldn't be a good mother.

I got extremely upset and started yelling and I said that "I wish I would've known this is how you felt before I got pregnant with your baby." There was a moment of silence before he started crying and he left for the night to stay at his mothers house. He hasn't been back yet and my MIL and SIL have called me berating me and saying I broke Jakes heart with what I said and I need to apologize immediately, and until I do he isn't coming home. I don't know how to feel.

So AITA for yelling at my husband after he said he isn't helping me with anything during the pregnancy because "its a mothers job to deal with it"?

EDIT: First I want to thank you all for your responses. I'm sorry I haven't really responded to anyone specifically but I really do appreciate you guys. A few of you asked if I told my MIL and SIL what he said, which I did. They basically said I was being sensitive and all he meant was pregnancy isn't an excuse to be lazy, he meant no harm. ......ok. I am getting some things together and am going to be headed to my mom and dads house. My mom is furious with him and doesn't want me apologizing to him or talking to him without the situation either being recorded or having a witness. Regardless, I am ok and will be ok. I do appreciate all of you though, you have opened my eyes to many things I may have been ignoring or looking past over the years.

[katsukis-angel]

Hi! I saw that ur matchup is open, can I have one with jujutsu kaisen male matchup?

Appearance: 160cm, have a dark dirty blonde hair with black roots and I wear a black glasses, love wearing skirts and dresses, have a very very dark brown eyes which is only noticeable if that person is standing 1cm in front of me and stare right into my soul lmao

Personality: cold to new people but wild and weird around close friends, independent and often too scared to ask for help most of the time, stubborn and determined, always act tough and bottle up my feelings but actually very sensitive and cry baby, hot-headed/short-tempered, kinda bit tsundere but can get very very clingy in a relationship, get shy, awkward and cringe at myself easily even if it's just me having a music jamming session all by myself, I can't handle pressure that good so i tend to run away from stressful situation but I'm trying to change that

Mbti: ISFP-T

Hobby: listen to songs, play video games and watch esport tournaments or streamers streaming, sometimes shopping cuz i like fashion related stuffs

What i look for in a partner: loyalty, sweet and caring, protective/dominance, able to accept every part of me

Love languages: quality time, words of affirmation and act of action

Random facts: very picky eater, always rage in video games and on my mic to scream at teammate who ruin my game but not to my friends, tend to say weird stuff or give weird replies when I'm lacking sleep even though I still can function normally, talk to myself a lot especially when I'm playing video game

I hope these are enough! Thank you for answering my request!!

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Awe no problem lovely, I matched you with Megumi 😌 you would make such adorable babies 🥺 sorry haha!

This is quite funny actually because you’re both little tsunderes lmao. Everyone knows how much you like eachother but you’re too stubborn to say anything. Megumi thinks your the cutest thing to ever exist and always finds himself getting lost in your eyes, he loves when he hears you chatting with yourself, he thinks it’s adorable. Whenever you lose your glasses he manages to find them and softly slips them back onto tour face, not saying anything if your confront his sweet gestures. Sometimes he will walk past Itadoris room and hear you yelling at him whilst playing your video games together and smirks to himself. When you’re together he’s the best bf omg, he’s obviously v dominant in the relationship but is also super sweet and caring with you, he isn’t very intimate in front of others but behind closed doors he will give you so much attention and love 🥺. You guys like playing video games together, you actually taught him a few of your favourites and a lot of date nights consist of playing games or watching your favourite streamers on twitch. He spoils you btw - he hates admitting it but if you ever go shopping and want something he will buy it without hesitation. He likes that you’re clingy, it makes him feel quite loved even if he holds a stoic face, as someone who doesn’t portray loads of emotions he doesn’t mind having a partner that does, it balances the relationship out.

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[its-the-love-shot-exo-writer]

Xiumin Smutty Fluff

For anon I hope you like it ❤

Xiumin kisses your neck and your heart starts beating faster. Even though you're in the privacy of his home you feel uneasy. It was never like that before. Being with Xiumin was the most comforting thing you'd ever experienced so why did that change?

Even Xiumin notices and quickly stops to look at you. “Are you okay?”

You consider saying something generic to end the conversation but you're confused. Let's face it you know what's bothering you but you don't know how to express your feelings to him. You've never been good at confrontation.

But eventually he's going to try to do more and then it will be even harder to stop him. “I'm sorry” you blurt out purely out of habit.

“Sorry about what, babe?” Xiumin looks clueless and a little worried.

You can't believe how much love he has to give. It's amazing the way you feel when he's around. Like everything is just perfect. It's just the way it should be. And that's what scares you the most. That when you go further he'll realize you're not worth the trouble. Sure he's sweet now but what if he sleeps with you and sees you're nothing more than a fluffy body with stretch marks and other things people consider ugly? What will you do when he sees you in that way?

“My body… it's not what you're used to,” you finally manage to say it. “It's not…I mean…”

“Okay stop,” Xiumin says and he looks a little furious. “You think just because I'm an idol I must be that shallow? Is that it?”

“That's not what I mean…”

“You think I've been going out with you for all this time for nothing? You know I could just go to the kind of person you think I want, right? Nothing is stopping me.”

“Then why? Why did you go out with someone like me?” the words you just blurted them out and you don't know how it happened but now you're also crying.

Xiumin pulls you to himself and puts his arms around you. “Baby, I fell for who you are,” he says. “That's who I want more than anything. There's only so many shallow one night stands you can take before you start feeling like shit. I wanted to be with a real person. A person who wasn't the same shallow brain and shallow heart that I always find. There's not a thing about you I'd change. And I don't know how you might take this but I think you're hot and no doubt sexy.”

You want to believe that. You just don't know if you should. But the sincerity in his eyes makes you feel a little secure again. “You mean that?”

Xiumin pulls you away to gaze into your eyes that are still filled with tears. “Stay and find out how hot this body of yours makes me.”

You know what he's doing and truly there's nothing you want more than to feel him, closer, deeper, for the rest of the night, and for all of eternity.

“There's just one more thing,” you say. “I'm still a virgin.”

At this Xiumin looks a little taken aback. “Oh.”

And there it is. The dreaded “Oh” which could mean anything from why is there something wrong with you to let's do this again some time literally translated to let's break up.

“If you want me to leave I'd totally understand,” you tell him.

“Why would I want you to leave?”

“I don't know, I figured I'd freaked you out enough for one day.”

Xiumin smiles. “I'm not going to lie, it's not ideal. I don't usually do that but I also don't date people like you so I don't think it's a problem. If you get super clingy after I'll love you even more! I love clingy people. In fact I can be pretty clingy myself.”

The adorable way he says it makes you grin. “I think I could live with you being super clingy as long as I'm the only one you're clingy with.”

“Are you sure you can handle that kind of clinginess? Who knows I might be bringing banana bread to you the next morning or maybe I'll take you out for ice-cream in the middle of your work day.”

“I think we can work something out…” before you get to finish your sentence Xiumin kisses you.

“I think I might be falling in love with you, Y/N.”

The sound of his innocent confession makes you confront some of your own feelings. Feelings that are similar to love.

You know in that moment if there's anyone in the world you want to take your virginity it's Xiumin.

That's when his mouth meets yours in a passionate kiss. The wetness of his mouth on yours, and Xiumin wraps his arms around you, pulling you tight into him.

The kiss becomes deeper, more primal. Xiumin moves his mouth to engulf your neck. Kissing and lightly biting his way along your neckline and collarbone. And then his hands slip inside your shirt. You moan as his hands reach everywhere, and when he's nuzzling and biting your ear lightly, his tongue tracing along your earlobe.

Oh god it feels so good! Your breath coming hard and fast and Xiumin grabs your hips and you're both making out heavily.

In no time you're both so excited it doesn't take Xiumin long to lead you to the bed and you willingly go in anticipation.

You both start undressing. Xiumin removes your panties, spreading your legs and you feel his fingers gently touching you with the lightest caress and your whole body responds by shivering. When he stops its only to pleasure you with his tongue.

You almost scream in ecstasy when he brings you close to an orgasm.

"Oh, fuck!" you blurt out. No one has ever done that for you. Suddenly your hands are tangled in Xiumin’s hair as you thrust your body against his face. When you grind your hips and thrust you can feel him getting more intense. Within moments you climax.

But Xiumin isn't about to let you go just yet. While you're still pretty sensitive he begins the cycle of licking and caressing until once again you're shivering in ecstasy.

He finally stops and goes up to you. “Do you want me to stop?” just the fact that he's asking makes you feel comfortable again and you realize that for once, all the insecurity you have about your own body didn't once bother you. Maybe because with him everything feels right.

“Keep going,” you can barely manage to speak.

"You have to wait a sec, I have to get a condom from the bathroom." Xiumin says and disappears into the bathroom.

When he comes back he starts kissing you passionately as your bodies meet.  

"Go slow please,” you say because you are still a little bit worried.

“I'll be gentle,” Xiumin says. “And you must be nice and slick now so it won't be that bad.”

Obviously he knows what he's doing so you decide to go with your instinct and trust him.

Your eyes remain locked with his as he slowly slides himself inside you. Xiumin and you were sharing something sacred, something beautiful.

Xiumin pushes gently, slowly increasing the pressure of his hips. Your body parts with a feeling like something gently tearing. For a brief moment it's painful and Xiumin pulls you close into himself and kisses you with deep passion.

Soon, his full length is inside you. Xiumin’s mouth is still hot on yours. Hes extremely slow, extremely gentle. Where he gets that kind of patience is beyond you.

When you're finally ready he starts to slowly push and pull his way in and out of you. Those mingled sighs stifled by the burning hot kiss you're sharing. You're moving together, your legs wrapped around Xiumin.

In no time you were as close as Xiumin was, you could tell.

He pumps slowly in and out of you, growing more excited as each of his thrusts brings you closer to climax. When you finally come you can feel him coming as well and you feel him thrust ever harder. He even makes a loud cry when he finally comes.

Finally spent, Xiumin collapses against you on the bed and wraps his arms around you, your hearts pounding, strong enough to feel through each other's chests. You feel it when he kisses you gently and you both lay exhausted next to each other for the rest of the night.

[thehappiestandunluckiest]

Cut Throat And All That Jazz

Having a somewhat large scar across your neck is just asking for attention.

I have a sizeable scar halfway down my neck and I get asked about it - often.

Usually, I say “oh this *rubbing my fingers over the sensitive raised skin* ha! funny story, I was held hostage by some pirates and they held a knife to my throat - left a scar,” people tend to step back and gasp. (i wonder why?) then I proceed to say “no I'm kidding - I had cancer.” They have the same reaction again. I find this very amusing.

So at 20 years old, I was diagnosed with cancer. it's an odd thing to say and even odder to live through. But first, let me just say I AM A-OKAY!!! Don’t worry, the C-word brings a lot of terrible connotations (for good reason) but I am fine, doing great!

I was operated on twice and had radiotherapy once. The whole story of radiotherapy is more than worthy of its own post because of the absolute complexity and peculiarness to the whole experience. But let me just tell you about my operations.

I was told I needed my thyroid out around March time, it was scary but back then I didn’t have as many things scaring me.

My operation got postponed twice - my user name doesn’t include unlucky fir nothing...

I eventually had my operation on August 23rd, an exact month after my brother's accident. Thank god my aunt had come to visit she was such a good help- she has a healing spirit.

Before my operation, was slightly nervous but I had gone through and was going through so much that I just wanted it over and done with. My mum brought me to the hospital - private, thank god for work insurance! I'm escorted to my room, that was almost like a hotel room and definitely nicer than the IBIS hotel room my mother and I had to stay in one time in Lisbon.

A young nurse comes in, smiling, very warm and she looks at my chart.

“Emma Wilson, is your dad called David?” Not exactly what I was expecting but ok, “umm.. yes?” “That’s funny a year ago when he was here for a couple of nights this was the bed he stayed in and I was his nurse!” Now, when a hospital knows you so personally that you're welcomed like an old friend you know that your family has a lot of medical issues.

Let’s skip over the boring parts. I get those tights on, I put on the robe, hair in a net, she tries to put my IV in (to any vampires out there - don’t even bother with me I’m useless my veins are so deep) I have a fear of needles so being prodded various times is not good for the nerves. I settle in, all set, my boss, co-workers and family members have all wished me luck, and so have a hand full of friends. I would like to mention that those who were there for me weren’t all people I had expected to be, but I am so grateful for them and their warmth.

I was wheeled into the operation block.

My mum warned me to close my eyes, she had been operated on a few times in her life, people don’t know that about her but she’s been through a lot, all through her life and yet she’s ever sweet, caring and helpful to everyone (even when I tell her not to be to certain people who use her and hurt her-karma will get to you buddy).

So, true to my very nature, I ignored my mothers' advice - but who was actually expecting me to obey orders (ha! you obviously don't know me). So I am trying to take in everything I can, it’s very exciting to me. I wanted to study to be a doctor so I love all the details and procedures. I meet my surgeon and anesthesiologist there.

Side story -  my anesthesiologist is one of a kind. Now I’m not into ladies. But this woman glowed. She radiated this innocent, warm caring aura and I mean this (I wasn’t on any drugs yet so these are all conscious thoughts) she was an angel. And if you ever need a great anesthesiologist contact me because the whole team and her were top notch.

So I get onto the metal bed, bright lights, not what greys anatomy looks like but not too far off. There are quite a few doctors and nurses, but I guess slicing through someone's throat is a pretty big deal, don’t want to slip and cut my carotid artery.

So I'm allergic to some anaesthetics - and this is scary. If you want to research how easy it is to kill someone by anaesthesia you’ll understand why they get paid quite nicely. I was super scared that I’d have a reaction and die. Let’s not sugar coat things, I could, and I was scared. Not of dying, that's far too mediocre of a fear for me. I was genuinely scared of leaving my family when they were already so fragile. And when I got the news that my tumour was malicious and problematic as it actually was latched onto my artery I was so mad at myself, like Jesus, give your parents a break!

So they used the oldest form of anaesthesia which wouldn’t cause my body to log off for good - I was happy they were taking extra measures to calm me down. “This is very safe, but one side effect that modern medicine doesn’t have is that - it burns”. Now I was pretty overwhelmed and was like honey please, I feel no pain. But on my second operation, I felt it a lot more so I can really explain this to you.

The IV is in my hand, dripping saline fluid through my body. This new fluid though feels like battery acid. And I’m a sucker for pain (sorry mum you raised a freak - sue me!) But the fact that you can really feel it, going through the capillaries in your hand, to your fingers, coursing up your arm, finally to your shoulder, it feels thick, like your blood is setting into a thick custard. Then, after your shoulder, you're out, like a light. It works, and that's what matters, but it’s very weird. It's like it happens in slow motion but super fast all at once.

I wake up in the after surgery unit care *insert proper fancy name here*. The nurse is so warm, in fact,I can't fault any doctor or nurse ever throughout this experience. I guess because I was so vulnerable, unable to talk, move, communicate, its like a mother and baby like experience. It was reminiscent of a mother and her newborn (ok let's calm down that's too much ewey gewy for me).

I had read some articles others had written about their thyroid surgeries, a bunch of babies. Ok,I don't want to put people down that’s mean. But, if anyone is going to have this surgery and are scared, here’s how I calmed myself down the day of, the week before and the month before.

“Emma, it has to be done. You know this. It will only get worse. You’re young, you haven’t even turned 20 yet and you have your whole life ahead of you. Get it done. Jack got through what he got through, you can get through this. They wouldn’t put you through things you couldn’t handle - things have a way of working out - they always do.”

Now I know that’s super-specific advice and maybe - probably - didn’t help at all. But you can actually get through anything. Humans are quite the resistant bunch.

So I get back to my ward, there's a girl who’s just had her capillary on her nose burnt off or whatever that’s called. She’s my age and making so much fuss. I’m laying peacefully. I had the remote to the tv so I offered it to her (I’m for sure going to heaven I know).

Now,what did she choose to watch on tv? Guess.

The Fault In Our Stars. Cute right? NO,IT’S NOT CUTE! The girl in the film. What’s she dying of? THYROID CANCER. So yeah that’s what we watched to fall asleep to - lovely. God is playing some sick jokes on me.

I got home, I ate a lot of ice cream, soup and was pampered by my auntie. Everything was smooth after this. Apart from getting the results of the biopsy and having to go through it again 2 months later but it went well. All-in-all having a badass scar across your neck makes you look hardcore and it’s my ‘battle scar’ even if that’s super cheesy.

E. L. Wilson